I personally lived many years with various eating and exercise disorders. I am now completely 100% well and fully enjoying life. For me this means that I have no shadows at all left of the disordered behaviours and compulsive thoughts around food and exercise that were all encompassing for so many years. It means that I am completely fine with who and how I am, accepting my flaws and weaknesses and embracing my skills and strengths.
In my teens I was anorexic, in my 20s I was bulimic. In my early 30s I thought I was ok but finally had to admit to myself that actually I was far from OK. I was working in the fields of sport and fitness and competing at a fairly high standard in triathlon. This, for me, fuelled my disorder which was now manifesting as compulsive exercise. Finally towards the end of my 30s I got myself out of the destructive cycle I was in and I got well. Fully well.
Talking therapy got me to a place of being able to function and find a level of stability with my feelings around food and exercise. The final pieces of my full recovery came with connecting with my body through yoga and pilates. I finally 'heard' my body and learned to listen to what it had to say. I learned when it needed rest, when it needed nourishment, when it needed activity, when it needed some love. I found parts of me that I had been denying myself for a long time. Now that I am completely out of my illness I realise the strength it took to get to this place. And I also realised how much that strength has formed who I am now. I never ever want to live those years again, but I am so glad for them making me who I am now.
I went on to qualify as a pilates teacher, then yoga teacher, working mainly 1:1 with clients. Although I had no intention at that point of working with those with eating disorders, I found that these clients were finding me! Because of my background I found it easy to talk and see beyond the disorder. Through the work we were doing, I saw the changes in them and that the disorder was having less of a hold on them. I knew that this was my path.
I went on to qualify as a Therapeutic NLP practitioner and have continued to deepen my therapeutic knowledge, skills & practice. I am currently training as a psychotherapist.
Outside of work I enjoy writing, drawing, cooking, mountain biking, trail running, snowboarding and pyjama days.
Various workshops attended on behaviour strategies, neuroscience, sport and exercise psychology, somatics, feldenkrais, franklin method, developmental movement and developmental psychology, attachment theory, psychotherapeutic movement.